Pertaining to current matters

I am beginning this the third time..

I don't really know what to say.... even though there is a lot to say.

Life has become more pleasant in one way now. I have recovered from many accidents... The marks will never go though. But i don't really care.

People who have not read the book " To kill a mockingbird" i think you guys should go ahead and read it.. if u don't have it, let me know i will gladly lend u my book.

This is a haphazard post... more disorderly than the other ones.. but who cares

This week started off with a brilliant mail that i got... it was a nice one.. and even though it made me feel really cold for sometime, it was a nice feeling.. have u ever felt that? when u read something which u know is coming and which u don't want to. But once it comes u don't feel as much as u thought u would feel? Its damn cold though. For sometime. I was sitting, listening to some ppt, i check my mail and there it is.. i read it twice... i was so excited and "COLD" that i couldn't refrain from sending out messages to find out more details... but i think if u expect something to happen and if u wait for it to happen a long long time, when that thing really happens, you never feel what u though you would feel. Its nothingness.

Has your heart ever started beating fast just by the sight or even the thought of something? have u ever felt scared about something which u wait for ever to happen?? i read somewhere that you don't fear something when it really happens but it is the wait for that thing to happen which is fearful. Sometimes this is true.

I sit in my cube running scripts all day long and when i go back to my room i never wonder why i am wasting my time like this. i know this is no means to any end. This sucks. I lack the drive to change things.. wtf?!

The easiest way to happiness is to quit complaining?!